Feeling old

20131104-192655.jpg

It’s a strange thing with me… I suddenly feel old, as in not in the middle of the actual life… Slowly I begin to understand that I am actually getting old, older but it’s not this physical olderness that bothers me… It’s the existence in a parallel universe to people and lives I used to be a part of.
My interests and hobbies stayed the same but now when I pursue my interests I am surrounded by people I can’t relate to and the only common denominator is the interest we share . My interests are out of tune with the life of a wife and mother I have.
I like funky places and shabby looking cool cafés but the crowd there are mostly students or people who had children very young or divorced men who can play rent-a-dad on an odd weekend…
I like learning new things, I am excited by unorthodox ways of learning, I am intrigued by everything new – people surrounding me are much younger, mostly students … Like I once was and never will be again…
Any ideas how you catch up and fit onto new life ? I got me tried and had children a few years ago but I still haven’t caught up with my new identity, inside I still haven’t even graduated Uni… Instead of being whole I now consist of poorly connected parts, fractions and fragments.

What to do?

Advertisements

What do YOU think?

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s